Last night, Little C put on her ‘princess dress’ (tutu) and her favorite pink boots, and requested music so that she could dance. As Billy Joel’s “Lullaby (Goodnight, My Angel)” played softly she closed her little eyes, and twirled in slow lazy circles, tiny arms raised above her head as her fingers gently moved through the air. It was so pure, so organic, such undiluted happiness and freedom. I wonder what she thinks…what she sees when she looks in the mirror. I want to crawl inside her little head for just a moment and see the world through her eyes. I wish I could be more like her-carefree, open, unaffected and without reservations; she feels everything. These moments, watching her, I learn more about myself and the world than anywhere else. I want her to always feel this free, this light, this loved. I want her to always be able to stand in front of a mirror and close her eyes and dance, to always be able to look at herself the way that she does now. I want her to feel love, to love herself and to love others. I want her to know how deep my love for her goes and how she will never ever be alone. I want to protect her from the world and the things that somehow make us stop being THIS. We should all take a note from Little C’s book. Sometimes it’s important to put on your tutu, pull on your boots, and simply let go.
Billy Joel’s lyrics say it all: I promised I would never leave you And you should always know Wherever you may go No matter where you are I never will be far away
Someday we’ll all be gone But lullabyes go on and on They never die That’s how you And I Will be”.
So dance on, tiny dancer. Dance your heart out. And know that mommy is here, always. I love you.
Lyrics to Billy Joel’s Lulaby (Goodnight, My Angel) Goodnight, my angel Time to close your eyes And save these questions for another day I think I know what you’ve been asking me I think you know what I’ve been trying to say I promised I would never leave you And you should always know Wherever you may go No matter where you are I never will be far away
Goodnight, my angel Now it’s time to sleep And still so many things I want to say Remember all the songs you sang for me When we went sailing on an emerald bay And like a boat out on the ocean I’m rocking you to sleep The water’s dark and deep Inside this ancient heart You’ll always be a part of me
Goodnight, my angel Now it’s time to dream And dream how wonderful your life will be Someday your child may cry And if you sing this lullabye Then in your heart There will always be a part of me
Someday we’ll all be gone But lullabyes go on and on… They never die That’s how you And I Will be