A Tiny Dancer and A Lullaby

Last night, Little C put on her ‘princess dress’ (tutu) and her favorite pink boots, and requested music so that she could dance.  As Billy Joel’s “Lullaby (Goodnight, My Angel)” played softly she closed her little eyes, and twirled in slow lazy circles, tiny arms raised above her head as her fingers gently moved through the air.  It was so pure, so organic, such undiluted happiness and freedom.  I wonder what she thinks…what she sees when she looks in the mirror. I want to crawl inside her little head for just a moment and see the world through her eyes.  I wish I could be more like her-carefree, open, unaffected and without reservations; she feels everything.  These moments, watching her, I learn more about myself and the world than anywhere else. I want her to always feel this free, this light, this loved. I want her to always be able to stand in front of a mirror and close her eyes and dance, to always be able to look at herself the way that she does now. I want her to feel love, to love herself and to love others.  I want her to know how deep my love for her goes and how she will never ever be alone.  I want to protect her from the world and the things that somehow make us stop being THIS.  We should all take a note from Little C’s book. Sometimes it’s important to put on your tutu, pull on your boots, and simply let go.  

Billy Joel’s lyrics say it all:
I promised I would never leave you
And you should always know
Wherever you may go
No matter where you are
I never will be far away

Someday we’ll all be gone
But lullabyes go on and on
They never die
That’s how you
And I
Will be”.  

So dance on, tiny dancer. Dance your heart out. And know that mommy is here, always. I love you.

Lyrics to Billy Joel’s Lulaby (Goodnight, My Angel) 
Goodnight, my angel
Time to close your eyes
And save these questions for another day
I think I know what you’ve been asking me
I think you know what I’ve been trying to say
I promised I would never leave you
And you should always know
Wherever you may go
No matter where you are
I never will be far away

Goodnight, my angel
Now it’s time to sleep
And still so many things I want to say
Remember all the songs you sang for me
When we went sailing on an emerald bay
And like a boat out on the ocean
I’m rocking you to sleep
The water’s dark and deep
Inside this ancient heart
You’ll always be a part of me

Goodnight, my angel
Now it’s time to dream
And dream how wonderful your life will be
Someday your child may cry
And if you sing this lullabye
Then in your heart
There will always be a part of me

Someday we’ll all be gone
But lullabyes go on and on…
They never die
That’s how you
And I
Will be

Thanks for reading  Muah <3